I was giving up. I would have given up — if a voice hadn't made itself heard in my heart. The voice said “I will not die. I refuse it. I will make it through this nightmare.
I will beat the odds, as great as they are. I have survived so far, miraculously. Now I will turn miracle into routine. I will put in all the hard work necessary. Yes, so long as God is with me, I will not die. Amen”.