Think now | Voltaire French Enlightenment philosopher

I have wanted to kill myself a hundred times, but somehow I am still in love with life. This ridiculous weakness is perhaps one of our more stupid melancholy propensities, for is there anything more stupid than to be eager to go on carrying a burden which 

one would gladly throw away, to loathe one's very being and yet to hold it fast, to fondle the snake that devours us until it has 

eaten our hearts awayIJ